This very minute I have decided to make changes in my life. I have always been afraid. I have tried to make changes before but have always sabotaged myself. This time I will not.
The motto for my change is going to be "BE BRAVE". I am taking this motto into every aspect of my life.
I was supposed to start a diet on January 3rd 2011 but I have already cheated more times than I can count. That is stopping today. I have realized that I can not do this on my own. I am going to join OA. I have never really believed in group sessions. It seems like a crutch; but maybe that is what I need. Someone or something to help support me when I fall.
I have also decided to start going through all the stuff in the house and get rid of things. I was going to try to sell it on Ebay but I think that I will try a garage sale first. That will be easiest. If I can't get rid of the physical junk in the house holding me back maybe I will have room to deal with the emotional stuff holding me back. They go hand-in-hand. That is probably why I have found it so hard to start clearing stuff out. Avoidance. Scary stuff.
Today is January 6, 2011. I am making a list tonight of everything that I want to accomplish in the next month. I will hang it up my refrigerator so that I can see it everyday and cross the items off as I finish them. When (not if) I have succeeded I will reward myself by doing something that I have wanted to do but haven't because it scares me. I haven't decided what that will be yet.
I will keep you appraised along the way.